Elea made Bbq Caribou burgers last night, and I cannot even mention how amazing they were. Except that they were amazing…and droolworthy.
We’ve been able to have many movie marathons too. I got to watch Julie and Julia for the first time too! I loved that movie! I for sure want to buy it and have it in my house/room. I can’t believe how amazing some of her recipes are!
Also, this week, I decided to start running with Elea, so on Monday we jogged/walked four miles and then today did the same thing.
It left me looking like this O_O
And incapable of walking up and down the stairs while still looking a young- thriving- energetic age of 20.
Ohmyword….Am I really 20? O_o Hmmm I’m going to have to think about that tonight. O_O
I got to read an awesome book while being here. I’m only about halfway through it right now, but so far it’s given me a lot to think about and process through. It is called, “One Thousand Gifts.” The book is by Ann Voscamp, and I find her writing style very interesting. I don’t care for it in particular myself, but what she is writing on is very applicable to my life right now.
It has been one month and five days since Keith died, and it has been so hard on so many people. My heart goes out to his family and his closest friends every time I think of him and those days when I flew back to SC for the funeral. This book talks about grief and handling hardship in life, and Ann gives a quote by C.S Lewis that particularly touches my heart.
The quote is,
“If you think of this world as a place intended simply for our happiness, you find it quite intolerable: think of it as a place of training and correction and it’s not so bad.”
Ann then brought up the story of Hezekiah in the Bible, and how he did not want to die so he asked God if he could live for 15 more years and God granted him his request. The only problem is that, because of God letting this happen, Hezekiah’s wife bore a son that became the most evil king Israel had ever had…All because of how Hezekiah did not die earlier. Ann mentions that she had someone tell her, How maybe you shouldn’t want to change the end of a story because you don’t know what a different ending holds.” That line has been a really good reminder to me, because it has reminded me that I don’t know God’s plan, and just because my plan might feel better… Doesn’t mean it is the BEST plan. She also talks about being grateful, and giving thanks for hard things in life. For me that was the hardest part to read.
How can I be grateful for some of the things? The big question here for me is…
How can I thank God for Keith dying…
I guess that’s the biggest question on my mind. I can honestly say I haven’t gotten to the point where I can do that. I haven’t gotten to the point where I can thank God for that happening in my life. Not when I have seen all the people it has affected…I need to come to grips with life, and God, and realizing and remembering His Promises…Through that, I know that hopefully one day…I will be able to thank God for what happened with Keith…
Until then…I know though that I can reflect on His Promises… That even though my finite mind cannot understand why….
He does all things for GOOD
He does all things for his glory
His love endures forever
He understands what we all have been going through and can relate to it
He can provide all the comfort we need to get through…all these daily struggles.
Those five things help get me through those low points when I feel a sadness so great, I almost feel like I am drowning in it, and when I see other people’s lives aching in a way so much deeper than mine that I have no words to say to them because my words of comfort feel empty. God’s Word is never empty…Never void…and that comfort is what get's me through those sad days...
Isaiah 55:11 So shall my word be that goes forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.
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